Worse than any form of pain

This is the worse heartbreak ever. I cannot begin to even describe whatever that is that I am going through. I want you so badly that it hurts. And it doesn't make sense and I can't think straight.

They say that emotional pain is akin to physical pain. Maybe that bit is true. Because it is smothering me. I want to just... Cease to exist.

I would rather die trying than to not even have tried. And life doesn't seem like much when you are all that I got in my plans for the days ahead. I don't even think it is that worth living for. I need to find something to drown myself in. Work maybe. Working out maybe. Studies maybe. A person maybe. But then you'd still be irreplaceable, so why bother?


This is the worse form of heartbreak, and we were nothing. This is the worse form of heartbreak, because we were infinite, even as nothing. This is the worse form of heartbreak, because then, imagine if we were actually something. This is the worse form of heartbreak, because it was so, so close within grasp, but we let it slip away. This is the worse form of heartbreak, because I just lost a part of myself along with you. This is the worse form of heartbreak, because it is worse than any form of pain.

This is the worse form of heartbreak, because I miss you, already.